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 "When you are absent in heart but present in reality, you know the slightest bump or jostled by anyone would shatter your ability to hold it together. You'd be nothing but the dust that even a wisp of wind could and would blow away without any sympathy at all. As everything about you goes flying, you'd suddenly and horrifically realize you're helpless to gather the particles that were once "you" back into something of any sort of substance. "

But I Am. 

I've watched a lot of my family, chosen family, friends grieve hard the last few months. I myself have grieved hard the last few months - over my losses and as I've empathize with those grieving those same losses.

Grief never leaves, or lessons... It's always there. It comes in quietly, at the most unexpected time. 

And for whatever the reason the world tells us we have to always keep it together and we aren't allowed to show our emotions when grief hits. 

So when I read the following in my Bible study book tonight - I just felt it.... Deep in my soul:

 "When you are absent in heart but present in reality, you know the slightest bump or jostled by anyone would shatter your ability to hold it together. You'd be nothing but the dust that even a wisp of wind could and would blow away without any sympathy at all. As everything about you goes flying, you'd suddenly and horrifically realize you're helpless to gather the particles that were once "you" back into something of any sort of substance. "

The reality is that grief makes one's heart absent from reality and for awhile that's all I've known - and yet... I still live in reality, work in reality, love in reality, feel in reality and continue life. Why?

Because of" I Am"!

When grief hits - take that five minutes and grieve. Let I Am carry you, hold you, wipe your tears away. Lean into Him. Let those tears fall.... Because, yes grief will come again and again but those tears are healing and even when we don't have answers and we have all the questions of why. - I Am will still be there, holding you, wiping tears from your eyes, feeling every single emotion with you.

Then after five minutes, take ahold of I Am's Hand, dust yourself off and let Him walk with you, carry you through life. That's what He's there for.

By the way.... I don't have this down yet, but I'm intentionally striving to lean on and into I Am.

" Soon we'll come to the end of life's journey

And perhaps never meet any more

Till we gather in heaven's bright city

Far away on that beautiful shore


If we never meet again this side of heaven

As we struggle through this world and its strife

There's another meeting place somewhere in heaven

By the side of the river of life


Where the charming roses bloom forever

And where separations come no more

If we never meet again this side of heaven

I will meet you on that beautiful shore"


Until my next post - or heaven

❤️

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